36 Weeks...

I'll be turning 36 weeks on Wednesday. How I look in this picture is actually how I feel : TIRED and huge.

I feel like the last few weeks I've had some harder days than others. Its still not bad everyday... and I have moments where I forget I'm pregnant and feel like I can do anything. Those moments are getting to be fewer and I'm having more and more moments where just walking to the mail room feels like the equivalent of running a 5k. I'm still working full time and I'm planning on doing so until he comes (actually, I have the nice idea in my head that I'll go into labor at 5pm on a friday and walk upstairs) but I've had a few moments where I'm not sure I'm gonna make that.

I didn't want to write this post to seem like I'm complaining... I've just had so many thoughts go through my head that I don't want to forget. So... here are a few things I can think of right now that I would like to remember so I can appreciate NOT being pregnant later:

• MY FEET FREAKING KILL! Honestly - I don't think most pregnant women have this problem as much as I have. This started when I was just 24 weeks pregnant. From the minute I wake up in the morning, walking to the kitchen is painful. By the time I've walked from my house to my desk at work, the bottoms of my feet feel like I have walked about Disneyland ALL DAY. My feet being a little swollen comes and goes (which I couldn't care less about)... but the pain never goes away. I would much rather have elephant feet than painful feet. Actually - my hands have felt more swollen than my feet.
• Turning around in bed at night SUCKS. By the middle of the night I have turned from side to side enough that the lenghts of both my legs hurt (like you've been sitting on a hard chair for a while and your butt hurts). So by morning it is so hard to get comfortable and just switching sides is hard and it hurts. I don't know if I'm turning wrong or something, but it pulls my stomach muscles and sometimes I get a pinching pain.
• Bending down. Could I be more CLUMSY? I swear I have doubled the amount of things I happen to drop in the last few weeks just cause my mind is playing with my body... forcing me to bend down. I feel SO unlady-like spreading my legs so I don't squish my stomach in order to pick something up. I think dropping something, knowing you have to bend down to pick it up can drive a pregnant women to tears... and I've been close!
• Cramps. For the last week or so I've been getting menstrual camps that come and go. I've told that's a good sign... early signs of contracting and my body doing its maternal job... but heck- not cool! They have moved towards my lower back and make sitting in a chair at work all day even more unconformtable.
• Tingling arms. It started with just my hands and only at night. Now the tingling is all over my arms and anytime. I have tried stretching my wrists but that is not helping. It doesn't matter how I sleep, I can wake up with my whole arm(s) asleep. This isn't painful at all (thank goodness!) but just uncomfortable and troubling. I'm told that will go away after delivery... I just hope I'm not damaging the nerves in my arms at all.
• My poor intestines. I don't know if I'm confusing the cramps with Easton shilling on my internal organs... but I swear everytime I get in a car he pinches my intestines or something. By the end of the day I just feel worn out and laying down on my side, getting some of the pressure off my insides really helps. I think the position of riding in the car is the worst... it always hurts something on my pelvic floor.
• Sore Legs. Especially by the end of the day, my legs are just tired. There have been a few times getting off the couch where I feel like my leg is going to give out. I don't think my body is liking the extra weight very much.

Okay, I think that covers the main stuff.

On another note, I still can't enough of his kicks. My favorite thing so far has been when he's trying to move and can't... kinda like banging your head against the wall. He tries so hard for a minute to rotate or move and there's just not enough room. It breaks my heart a little, but also makes me LOVE him so much for trying. Maybe its cause in my mind it gives him a little bit of personality. I can already tell I'm gonna miss his kicks.